Putting goals in perspective


I never did reflect on my fall goals because I was embarrassed that I neglected almost all of them. I set 10 goals in fall and ended up accomplishing about two that season.

You see, I was in my last quarter of classes and ended up focusing on school work more than the lofty goals I wrote before the academic year began. I actually ended up getting the best grades of my whole college career. That might not be saying a lot since I’ve never been an A student, but I was happy about it. I got As in three academic classes and ended up with a B+ in yoga because I skipped one two many classes. Whatever. It’s funny, actually, because I usually include “get all As this quarter” on my goal list and I didn’t until I stopped putting it on a goal list.

Now that it’s spring, I feel okay about reflecting on my long forgotten fall goals.

1. Get another internship
I had a short lived internship at the end of summer, but I wanted another afterward to gain more career experience. I actually need to complete an approved internship for course credit to graduate in spring. Although I applied to some in fall, I didn’t get a response back until winter, when I had much more free time for applications. I began two internships in February in slightly different but related fields. So, I accomplished this goal, but in winter instead of fall. Yay hurray!

2. Read at least three books
Honestly, I can’t even remember reading one book. That makes me a little sad. But, like I said, I was focused on school. I had to read a lot of articles for my Multiracial and Hybrid Identities class. Surprisingly enough, I also had to read and write a lot for Meditation and Yoga, although I put a lot of that off for the end. I had to read, watch videos, take photos and create projects for Photoshop class. My Magazine class involved a fair amount of reading too, if you count copy editing, but there was no required book. So, there you go! I did read.

3. See a fun live TV taping and/or a play
Yeah, this didn’t happen either.

4. Submit articles to magazines and/or websites
Yes, I can say I did this. It might have been winter by then though. I submitted a story about grief during the holidays to HelloGiggles and it was published on Christmas Eve.

5. Redesign this blog
Oh silly me. I underestimated how much time I need to contemplate a big project before making changes. I’ve been working on this lately though.

6. Purchase a car and drive said car
I did go through three lessons with a driving instructor in fall and it did me good. Now my mom feels confident enough to let me drive her car while she sits in the passenger seat. I don’t feel comfortable buying a car when I don’t have income coming in, however.

7. Workout at least three times a week
I sort of did this. My yoga class was sort of like exercise and it was twice a week. So much of that class was meditation that it didn’t feel like a workout, but it did feel healthy. I also walked my dogs a decent amount.

8. Start scrapbooking
This still hasn’t happened.

8. Get better at photography and gain confidence in abilities
I bought myself a camera in late August (I think) and it has made a huge difference in my photography skills. It’s so good to own my own camera. I gained confidence in my abilities in fall and have been loving photography ever since.

9. Run a 5K
Two of my friends and I almost ran a 5K at school. But we didn’t. We got lazy and changed our minds.

10. Work on budgeting money
This didn’t happen either. I tried to bring my lunch more often instead of buying food on campus. At least there’s that.

I love making lists and goals. But sometimes the timing just isn’t right or sometimes I just don’t stick to them and that leaves me feeling guilty.

I wonder if I should make any goals for spring or if I should combine my spring and summer goals. I also have a 24 before 24 list going that I want to complete before February 2015. Not to mention I’m graduating in spring and want to secure a job before then. Putting any other sort of to-do list together would feel like too much.

This whole reflection time is reminding me of a line from Beyonce’s “Pretty Hurts” video and song. “My aspiration in life is to be happy.”

I could make lists all day long. But instead I am going to do what makes me happy and in the process I know I will end up accomplishing a lot!

Cold and wet

me, annoyed

bus stop

I don’t want too much time to pass before I post a few photos from the LA storm this past weekend. It seriously poured on Friday!

In LA, rain makes the news. That’s true pretty much every time, no matter what month or year. It’s not just news for no reason this time, though. This winter has been unusually, which is especially bad considering California produces most of the nation’s crops.

I was glad that we got some rain. I love the sound of rain on the roof. In high school, I loved running in the rain. I was a crazy cross country runner then. But, I gotta tell you, I did not love standing around waiting for a bus to come on Friday afternoon while I stood around in the rain. My bus was 30 minutes late, which I didn’t realize at first, so I stood at the stop for a total of 45 minutes. I say that because I also got to the stop a little early. So, that’s why I look so annoyed in that photo up top. I actually took a selfie because I was annoyed and bored. Plus, posterity of course.

I snapped these pics while I was waiting around. Actually, I was prepared for this. Not only was I wearing my big green jacket with a nice hood, I also brought along my camera and a plastic bag specifically to take photos. I put the plastic bag over the camera to cover it from rain. All I had to do was rip a hole for the lens.

Then I called my Grandma. Thankfully, my grandma was able to meet me halfway, so I didn’t have to transfer buses. We had a few minutes at her house to chat, eat cookies, and drink cappuccinos before I went off to have dinner with friends.Grandma loves the rain, so it was nice to experience it with her, even for just a bit.

turning in water

near Starbucks

Comfort movies

Cat and Bianca

Whenever I have a sick day and have some time to lounge around, I throw on a movie I’ve seen enough times to have it practically memorized. It’s a kind of comfort to me, similar to eating a favorite food or reading a book over again. The familiar is comfortable. Comfort movies are great for a few reasons. With most of mine, I have good memories of watching the movie before and I know it by heart.

Today I had the chance to stay home and watch one of my absolute favorite comfort movies, 10 Things I Hate About You. You see, yesterday morning I felt like I might be coming down with the flu and by the end of the day I  was positive. My whole body ached, I was hot and cold, my throat hurt, my head hurt, my ears and nose hurt. Although I don’t own a thermometer, I’m also pretty certain I had a fever. My mom and sister can vouch for me on that. I was talking nonsense and feeling warm when I got home. So, for all those reasons I decided to call in sick and take a day of rest. In fact, now it’s 11 at night and I should be in bed getting more rest. Eek!

This morning I thought as long as I’m home sick, I should put on a comfort movie. That’s what I think of certain movies as. Is that just me?

Well, 10 Things I Hate About You is one of those movies for me, so I popped it in the DVD player. I love every bit of it. My sister Mary and I used to watch it a lot when we were younger. I am trying to remember when we first  got into it. The movie came out in 1999. At that time I must have been about 8 years old. I’m sure I didn’t see it that young. I do remember one time when my sister and I were watching it and she kicked me out of the room for a scene in which the Stratford sisters talk about sex (shown above), which is odd really because a lot of the movie does. I might have been in junior high at that time.

Some of my other favorite comfort movies, especially for sick days, include Beauty and The Beast The Lion King, Newsies and The Holiday. What can I say? I’m still a kid at heart. My mom says that when I was about 2 years old I would watch Beauty and The Beast just about every day. When I was about 5 years old, that same scenario went for The Lion King. The day after I got in a bad car accident in which I totaled my car on the freeway (another story for another time) I watched The Lion King. That felt like a warm hug in a scary time.

Of course, then there’s comfort television too. That’s a whole other thing. Friends, Gilmore Girls and MASH are definitely on that list for me. My family has all of Friends and MASH on DVD.

It’s nice to revisit favorite characters, hear familiar quotes, see great scenes play out and– as lame as this sounds — know what is going to happen, but still love every minute.

Image via IMDB.

Like someone? Tell the person.

newborn baby Ann
If you appreciate someone’s work or just plain think the person is cool, go ahead and tell him or her.

I’ve always been the type to wear my heart on my sleeve and I firmly believe that if you like someone you should tell the person.

I’m not talking about romantic relationships here, although I have done that my fair share before too. Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn’t. What I am saying is that if you appreciate a person for who he or she is or even if you have never met the person, but admire her work, go ahead and say it. People love compliments and love should be spread all around.

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What is an adult any way?

Grey sky and sunshine

Sometimes I wonder when I will feel like a real adult. Is that even a thing? I wonder if that’s something that only young people care about or only people born since the 80s or something like that.

There are certain things I haven’t done yet that make me feel like less of an adult and more of a young adult. I try not to hold them against myself. I’m trying to be nicer to myself. It’s almost funny because most of these things are not requirements for being an adult. Nothing is really, except for maybe age. I’m past 18. I’m past 21 actually. I just turned 23 on Sunday.

I feel like lately I’ve been complaining too much on this blog, so I’m trying not to do that. But I feel like I need to write about why I don’t yet feel like an adult and then decidedly tell myself how stupid that entire notion is.

So here are my reasons and counterarguments:

I don’t have a car, for one. I had one for a few months and then totaled it in a car accident on the freeway. That was two years ago. I had liability only insurance at the time and couldn’t afford another car. So I don’t drive much. I take buses or other people drive me. I’ve been saving up and I can afford a used car, so I should be driving any time now.
Counter argument: Not all adults drive. I live in Southern California, where it seems very necessary, but there are also adults here who don’t drive and that doesn’t make them less.

I don’t have a full-time job.
Counterargument: This isn’t a good reason. I’m 23. I haven’t graduated college quite yet. It’s okay.

I haven’t graduated college.
Counterargument: I may be in my fifth year, but that’s normal at my school. I’ll graduate soon, but that shouldn’t make a difference. Not everyone graduates college and that doesn’t mean they’re not adults.  I would never think that of anyone else, so why myself?

I live with my mom (and sister and aunt).
Life happens. I can’t afford to move out right now. That’s not a big deal at all. Actually, I don’t even know why I wrote this as a reason.

Okay, so I feel the strongest about the car thing actually. The others are ridiculous and definitely bad reasons to not feel like an adult.  I do want to get a car, graduate college, get a full-time job and move out. But until then, I’m not not an adult because I haven’t obtained those things.

Mostly, I feel like I’m in an in-between stage in my life. Those keep coming up in life, no matter how old a person is. Good things happen, bad things happen and that’s just life, no matter how old you are. It’s continuous. Change is good any way. Without it life would be boring. I’m a bit of realist so I don’t see change as necessarily good or bad, but closer to good and bad.

If you happen to be like me and feel like less of a grown up for any of these reasons, just brush it off. NBD. You’re an adult if you want to be. And also if you’re over 18. Sorry youngins, just enjoy your life and call it something else.

Well, I better clean my room, write emails, pay my bills and get some other stuff done before the day slips away. I may even ride my bike around on this overcast day.

In other news, I wrote a story for The Le Sigh (my first one!) on this new comic, MiSSiLE, by Ashley Loftin and Kelly Thomas. It was a great adventure. I interviewed the women over Skype. I had never interviewed any one over Skype before! They talked to me about their comic and how it’s already gaining recognition. It’s very relatable. Go check out the story and their Tumblr, pretty please.

P.S. Last thing! The photo above was taken last week. Rain more please, L.A. sky.

What to do when you’re feeling blue


One of my least favorite things is being home alone for long periods of time. Unfortunately, that’s been happening a lot lately. I finished all my classes in December, but I’m on the job hunt now. It kind of sucks. Everyone I live with is working and gone for the day.

Sometimes I get a little blue being alone. Or sometimes I don’t even get sad, I just get sucked into a sea of the vast Internet web pages of articles, tweets and tutorials. I’m trying not to do that as much anymore. I have to focus on my 2014 goal of embracing all the possibilities in my life right now and actually take hold of opportunities instead of wasting time.

In the spirit of being productive and positive, I’ve come up with this list to help myself out. Hopefully it helps you too!

1. Eat breakfast before 10 a.m. If you don’t, you will regret it and be hungry. That’s not good. Have something yummy like cereal and then maybe make yourself a smoothie too.

2. Watch something funny. Laugh along with your favorite comedians on YouTube. If you haven’t already, watch Tina Fey and Amy Poehler’s opening monologue from the Golden Globes. I also suggest watching Superwoman, Smoothiefreak and Random Ass Girly Channel on YouTube.

3. Get some sun. Even if you’ve got a busy day indoors, be sure to take a few minutes on your break to step outside in the fresh air or at least hang out by a warm window. If you can work outside, do it! The sun has Vitamin D, which may increase levels of an antidepressant in the brain.

4. Hang out with animals. My dogs love having company and I love it too. Furry friends are the best. If you don’t have pets, maybe you can hang out with a friend who does when you’re feeling down. If you’re not much of an animal person, then I don’t know what to say to you. That’s just weird.

5. Exercise. Take the dogs for a walk. Or just take a solo walk. Or a run. Run to the nearest Starbucks, treat yo’ self and run home. Hey, that actually sounds awesome. I may do that.

6. Do something productive. That could mean something domestic like washing all the dishes in the sink, making dinner or vacuuming. If you’re like me, it could also include looking for opportunities, writing cover letters and submitting applications.

7. Do something creative. I try to do something creative every day. Sometimes that means writing on this here blog. It could also mean updating my websites and learning more HTML in the process, adding more magazine cutouts to my female inspiration board, or getting started on one of the article ideas I have in my head.

8. Volunteer. This week, I vow to start volunteering. I have too much time on my hands not too! Also, I would love to help out somewhere and having a place to be would do me good.

9. Call up a good friend. Sisters, best friends, old friends, family and the like are all great to call up when you’re feeling blue or just plain bored. Actually, they’re just great any time. Not just when you’re feeling needy! They need you too, after all.

10. Listen to music. Nothing elevates my mood quite like music. It’s also good to change it up. I’m guilty of listening to the same songs over and over. That’s cool and all, but sometimes I can use some change. Discovering awesome new music totally lifts my mood.

This list is mostly a “note to self.” Self, get your lazy butt out of pajamas before noon and do the things on this list. You will feel much better once you do.

Note: With all this said, dear reader, if you are experiencing depression, please seek help. Let others know what you’re feeling and get professional help, if needed.