Introducing Margaret Esme

For a while, I held off on writing a post about Maggie or anything at all for this blog. It’s been hard to find the time. But now Maggie is two months old and I want to share about her.

Also, I didn’t know what to say. Honestly, I felt sort of embarrassed about the circumstances surrounding her birth. She needed to be born early by C-section unexpectedly and I didn’t feel ready.

She was born three weeks early on Friday morning, December 14.

I had a doctor’s appointment that Tuesday and was told that I was showing signs that I could go into labor. However, the baby was breach so unless that changed, I would need a C-section.

You see where this is going? It’s not that simple though. I never went into labor. That’s not why she needed to be born early.

I had been going to the pare-natal center at the hospital because of a condition having to do with my thyroid. The baby’s heart rate went down too low on two different days, the second time being two days after that doctor’s appointment I just mentioned. A quick ultrasound showed the baby was still breach and now the amniotic fluid was too low, much lower than two days before.

After more testing and hospital staff communicating with my doctor, I was admitted for a C-section to be performed by my doctor appointment the next morning.

That wasn’t what I was expecting either. I was lucky enough to get an amazing surgical team. They were friendly and kind. The needle in my back didn’t hurt much. I felt a little out of it when she was born. The surgery was quick but recovery was long. I got good nurses for recovery too though. They helped me walk again. I had Paul’s help when we got home too.

The breastfeeding class I signed up for was the night I was admitted. I was admitted early afternoon and therefore couldn’t go. I hadn’t ordered my breast pump yet either.

I hadn’t decorated the nursery yet. At least we had the changing table/dresser combo and bassinet ready.

We didn’t have the car seat installed either. My husband was planning on doing that in a few days because he had an appointment for a car seat inspection at the hospital. Instead, he got in contact with our local police department and the police chief himself checked to see if Paul installed the seat correctly on the day we went home.

We could have been more prepared. But it’s okay. Our early bird baby girl is happy and well loved. She’s more than we expected in a lot of ways.

Maggie is such a sweetheart. She loves cuddles, looking at faces and listening. At 10 weeks now, she is doing a lot of smiling and making expressive noises. She bats the toys on her activity gym and lately she likes staring at patterns, such as the zig zag pattern on her car seat. She’s playful and curious.

She is named after my aunt who died of breast cancer not long after I found out I was pregnant. She was a great person. Very loving, generous, loyal and independent. Maybe it’s because I try to, but I think I see her in Maggie.

Thank you all for your love and support. We’re grateful to have such a good community of people around us.

Our wedding day

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It’s been almost a year since I got married and I still haven’t shared details or photos on the blog, so I figure now is as good a time as any. If for no other reason, I thought it would be nice to write a bit about what the day was like so I can look back on it later.

I’m so happy with how the day turned out and glad we got to celebrate our vows with family and friends. Before we got engaged, we had talked about possibly having a courthouse wedding to avoid the planning and expense of something bigger. But I really wanted a wedding with our extended families and friends. I didn’t want to get married without my cousins, aunts, uncles and close friends there. Paul would have been okay with a small courthouse wedding, but in the end he said he was very glad we had everyone celebrate with us.

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5 years of dating

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My fiance and I have been together for five years now as of today. We’ve learned some about committing yourself to another person and grown as individuals in the process. We’ve also had a lot of fun.

To commemorate the occasion, I thought I would share five ways I show him I love him:

1. Say I love you.

He knows that I love him, but I still remind him every day by just saying so. There are some days that I forget to say so before he goes to work, so I’ll text him “I love you” instead.

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Proposal photos

 

I’ve been away from this blog for a little bit and I forgot to announce on here that I’m engaged. Yay! My guy proposed when we went on our road trip up to Capitola and Santa Cruz.

We’re planning on getting married next fall. I’ve started planning already.

If you’re reading this, you’ve probably already heard the news because I blasted it on Instagram, Facebook and Twitter a month ago. I hope you don’t get sick of me talking about wedding stuff. I’ll still post baking, cooking, and the occasional fashion post on Modern Notebook. But I’ll also happily share wedding planning updates too.

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Here’s to you, dad

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Five years ago, I lost my dad after he had a massive stroke. I’ve been missing him and wanting to say something about it online. So, here’s my little tribute to my dad and me looking at the good times.

Here’s to you, dad:

You gave me a love for storytelling. I appreciate the written word and visual communication in the form of film and art because of you. You were also the best oral story teller I’ve ever known. History and your personal stories came to life from your breath.

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Be your own person

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Hello! I’m coming at you from the Amtrack today as I’m in route to Santa Barbara with my best friend.

I just wanted to share some things I’ve been thinking about lately. This post has been in my drafts for a week now. Here goes!

A few weeks ago my boyfriend and I were at a concert together that he was really excited about. I wanted to go admittedly mostly because he wanted me to go. He said it would make him happy if I was there to enjoy one of his favorite musicians with him. Well, I ended up not having much fun, getting myself in a bad mood and being a grumpy munch. (Random Friends reference, anyone?)

Another day last month I was hanging out with my childhood best friend and let her pick the activities. Originally we had planned to go to a local chain restaurant with a bar, but then she suggested a new place and I said sure. It was a family style place and we ended up spending slightly more than I had planned. The food was okay, but not all that great. After lunch, we hung out at her house and watched some TV. She suggested we watch the show Mixology on Hulu. Within the first few minutes, I could tell it wasn’t my cup of tea, but I wanted to see the whole episode any way.

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It began over drinks

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[Photo credit: A Gentle Woman]

Today’s post is a response for the prompt What Does This Remind You Of #6 , which is a link up over on A Novel Quest.

Paul likes coffee and I like tea.

That’s what this photo reminds me of.

It reminds me of mornings when we would sit on an old wooden bench outside the music building before a class we had together. I would get to school early because my mom would drop me off on her way to work. He would meet me at “our bench” before our 9:15 a.m. class so we could hang out before our one shared college class. This was fall quarter of my fourth year in college and his last quarter as a student.

The bench itself and the people on it remind me of that time, but thinking back, I don’t think we ever had a coffee or tea together those mornings.

It does have me thinking about our first ever date together. We went to Starbucks. He ordered Chai Tea first and I got the same. I thought it was incredibly endearing.

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Happy birthday, grandma

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Today is my Grandma Donna’s 90th birthday. She’s one of my favorite people in the world, but unfortunately, I’m missing her birthday celebration because I’m at Coachella.

Just the same, I thought I’d share a quick thing I wrote for my grandma that someone else in my family will read to her tonight. At dinner tonight, my family will be sharing favorite memories and showering her with love.

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